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I have three main obstacles when it comes to raising $10 million with my marketing firm:

  • My psychological weaknesses
  • Branding
  • Scalable business processes

My Psychological Weaknesses

If you’d like to read about my mental weaknesses, click here.

I am my own arch nemesis. Always have been. I’m afraid to put myself out there the way people like Sam Ovens does. Or Tai Lopez, Alex Becker, or Elon Musk.

There are many weaknesses that affect my productivity, but they are not critical. Only two are.

The two crippling weaknesses I have are the following:

  • How speaking to people drains my energy.
  • How I fear negative judgements.

If you understand my backstory, you’ll see that I’ve had to overcome a lot to get to where I am today. I didn’t have the same start the many other millionaires and billionaires have had.

I wasn’t given very nourishing parents. They’ll likely tell you that they were nourishing, and they won’t necessarily be lying to you.

My mother gave what she could, considering the limitations of her own perception. As well as the limitations of the strength of her sense of self. My step-father took care of me only out of obligation. It’s a long, sad, chaotic story.

From a history of child abuse and poverty, I’ve developed many mental inhibitions. I am aware of my inhibitions, which is why I can articulate to you my weaknesses.

Many would already call me successful, and I would agree with them, to an extent. Few people are able to figure out how to make six figures from their living room the way that I have.

However, what I’ve achieved so far is not enough for me. I want the next level.

Overcoming Extreme Introversion

So, the reason why I’m writing this blog is to break through my mental barriers. While providing value to others.

My mental anguish runs so deep that I’ve had to burn the time it takes to write over 300,000 pages of self-reflection. This is not an exaggeration. I’ve tried to launch several versions of this blog. I’ve written several editions of my memoir.

And I have hundreds of thousands of pages of rants and stream-of-consciousness writings. I use them to self-critique. To self-observe, and thus self-innovate and actualize.

To highlight where I’m lying to myself about my own capabilities.

Posting some of it for others to see has allowed me to gain constructive criticism of my character. Pingbacks about my sanity.

It’s also one of the best methods I’ve experienced for learning, in general. And releasing stress in a healthy, non-destructive way.

This means that I could have progressed in the maths, and different branches of science. If I had a better start, I would have.

I’ve had my IQ tested. Both before and after having skull tumors removed.

I could have been one of those kinds of people who wins the Fields medal.

But I’ve had to channel all the energy that those kinds of people put into their studies differently. Since an early age I’ve had to put more energy into repairing myself, than those subjects.

That’s why I’m just now earning my degree in physics, from one of the most elite schools in the world, at the age of 30.

I’m late to the party. I’ve not allowed my past to cripple me, but it is why I’m late to the party.

Coming To Terms With My Past

As I’m studying physics, I’m building my marketing firm to provide for my family and repair my culture.

To break the cycle that hurt me.

I want to do that so that future generations of my line can have a better chance of actualizing in that direction.

If they choose.

They won’t have to worry about whether they’ll have enough food to eat. If they get sick, they’ll have medical care. They won’t have to go through what I went through in the beginning.

This has been a decision I’ve made. I’m no victim.

I’ve made this decision because I know what would have happened if I hadn’t.

If I had chosen to progress in academia before I was mentally healed, it would be another typical story. There are people winning awards of all sorts, every day, for different breakthroughs.

I knew that I would have ended up in the newspaper. Perhaps, there would have been a conversation or two in different circles about my work.

It may have inspired some entrepreneur to productize it, somehow.

But I know this:

There’s just as much a need to heal humanity as there is to advance it

There’s no point in working to save humanity if you’re not producing good humans to save, in the first place.

I may have turned out to be a great scientist, but not a good human being. If I procreated, then I would have also produced broken people.

Those broken people would have produced more broken people.

And so on, and so forth. Which leads me to ask the great philosophical question: Why?

Why care about the human species to have that kind of drive in that direction, to begin with?

Why is Elon Musk working to get us on Mars? What’s the point if broken people get on that rocket?

They will only create more broken people on Mars. And it will only end up being more of the same.

Needless wars. Broken homes. Just on a different planet.

It doesn’t really matter if we’re broken on Earth or on Mars.

We’re still broken.

What exactly are we escaping, if not ourselves? It’s not climate change. Not in the deepest truth, no.

Speaking To Anyone Drains My Energy

So, I know why I want to earn $10 million dollars. I have the drive for it. That’s not in question.

I want to earn $10 million dollars so that I can use it to rebuild my culture and reset a generational broken bone. To lay a foundation.

Then, the members of my tribe can achieve far more advancements in many directions. Beyond what only one broken scientist could ever.

But, I have a key problem: Speaking to anyone drains my energy.

Responding to comments drains my energy. Dealing with enviers on social media as I advertise drains my energy. Constantly being judged drains my energy.

Sociality itself drains my energy.

Thus, because I need to put myself out there to achieve my goals, I can only do so in spurts of energy. At least, until I can go back to non-social work, such as developing products with physics.

That’s what Wolven Industries will be for. The nature of that industry is different than the marketing industry.

In the technological industry, I can work on products and pay someone else to be the marketer.

But, I chose marketing first, because I wanted to understand how economics works.

You can read my thoughts on why scientists tend not to earn as much as marketers and celebrities, here.

So, I just have to move in baby steps during this stage, to build my personal brand.

What are your thoughts? Am I lying to myself somewhere? How? What could I be doing better?

What are some of your mental barriers?

If you liked this article, read more as I update this blog while I accomplish my goals.

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